field notes from a misdirected wanderer of rifts

2026 01 11

well, how were you supposed to know you would end up this way? did you still think you would still be so lost at this point in your life?

popular ways to reform your brain worms:

• marble soda - worms HATE carbonation
• cigarettes - you migth even make a friend
• be accepted - untested. proceed with caution

you're probably not going to take any of this advice anyway. you didn't even give me a choice, you didn't even tell me how you were feeling.

~

anyway, my worms don't even talk to me like they used to. I miss them. the less they talk to me, the more starved I feel. I hate it. It's not fair.

~

in the back of my eyes i still feel you staring at me

♪ punk tonite - only time plain jane

2026 01 10

remember when we.

remember when I.

remember when you.

you don't remember?.

i remembered

it was important to me

2026 01 02

i get it, i know, it was my fingernails. it's always been my fingernails.

But what was I supposed to do? i thought it would be nice?

am I not allowed to try?